Seeking where God Leads

Yesterday was embryo transfer day. Sadly, we received a call yesterday morning from the embryologist telling us that the last of our embryos had stopped developing. It is so hard to comprehend how we went from having twice as many embryos as last time to none on transfer day. It has been a very heartwrenching week for both us. After talking to the doctor yesterday afternoon, it seems that it will not be possible for us to have our own biological children.

Over the past couple of months, we have been thinking and praying about embryo adoption. When we started losing our embryos this week, we decided to pursue this option. We had looked at some profiles for some donor embryos about a month ago, but did not feel a strong pull towards adopting them yet. This week some new embryos became available and after reading through the profiles, they seemed to be a very good match for us. When we still had one embryo left, we decided that we would transfer the adopted embryos along with our remaining embryo.

By mid afternoon, things looked very poor. We had lost our last embryo and the three donor embryos had not survived the thaw. Richard and I began to feel lost and hurt, wondering why God was saying no to us. About 1:30 pm a second vial of the donor embryos were thawed and all seemed to be doing well. At least one of them was thriving and recovering from the thaw very well. The other two were responding and seemed the would also make it. About 3:30 pm we transferred three adopted embryos into my womb where we hope that at least one of them will attach and grow.

While we are mourning the loss of the opportunity to have children naturally, we are also thrilled at the prospect of becoming parents to these dear little ones that were left behind. It is a gift from God.

We continue to ask for your prayers as we potentially embark on a brand new journey in our lives. I am home on bedrest right now and it will be at least a week or so before we can test to find out if we are pregnant.

What an adventure is ahead of us!